I spend a lot of time crying. I do it by myself. Most people (until now) don't even know I do it.
Am I embarrased? Why should I be embarrased by tears for my first born child? Why?
But I am. I make people uncomfortable. When I tear up, I see the panic in their faces. It doesn't matter who they are - close friends, family, aquaintances. I learned quickly that it wasn't a good idea to let others know that I am NOT over "it".
Perhaps I am not being fair. Most people have no idea what it is like to loose a child. It's every parents worst nightmare. Of course it is; it's my worst nightmare.
Love you lady. Everyone grieves differently and there is no right or wrong way. Let those tears bring healing! Sometimes it just hits you out of the blue.
ReplyDeleteHannah and I were just sharing some memories of him at Christmas. Ahh...those plaid pants!
Praying you have a good week! :)
My friend. Thank you. It is so good to share with people who knew him.
DeleteOh, Leigh, I'm grieving with you and for you. Praying for you, my dear friend.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Joni. Praying for you as well.
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